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[26 Dec 2005|04:05am]
i'm moving back, bitches!
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[29 Aug 2005|01:04pm]
[ mood | happy ]

i'm doing fucking amazing, in case anyone in interested.
life is simple. simple is good.
i miss my aileen.
i kinda miss santa barbara. well, not really. i just miss like 3 people over there.
i am poor. this is a problem.
i'm living in TO again. which is chill.
my life is more on track than it ever has been before.
i think i actually like myself right now. or at least i'm getting there.
my friend willy gave me one of his guitars. rad. but it has no strings and i dont know which ones to get. not rad. i also dont know a fucking thing about playing guitar. also not rad. working on that...
i think i cuss too much. eh, fuck it.
yep. that's about it. i think i've finally figured this life business out. it's just good.
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[19 Aug 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | im ok.for the first time ever. ]

i broke out in hives from excessive stress.
what the fuck is this?!
shiiit.
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[11 Aug 2005|01:09pm]
life is a big fucking joke. everything is too temporary. i'm sick of starting over. but i'll never go back to who and what i had before. you think you're worth it? i think not. fuck all y'all. big-time. although, there might be a few people with good intentions. but ya never know. can't really trust and don't really know what faith is. yet. i'm missing the light at the end of my tunnel. barely anything to grasp onto. hopeless? probably. still don't have a place to call home. can't even think of a place i'd like to call home. the words 'best friend(s)' seem to have obliterated themselves from my dictionary along with people who might have once seemed worthy. doesn't exist. i'm convinced. everyone's too selfish. almost everyone. the rollercoaster is better than the merry-go-round. that's what they say. but this rollercoaster has never been so big or scary.

someone told me i should write a book about my life. i say they're crazy. but then i'd have to dig up some shit. if you think you know, you have no fucking idea.
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[30 Jul 2005|05:24pm]
hey i'm back in TO for the night if anyone is interested in hanging out. i'll probably call you if you're still one of the cool kids...kbye.
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[26 Jul 2005|07:25pm]
i am one hell of a co-dependent.
fuck.
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[27 Jun 2005|02:56am]
if there was one thing you could wish for, what would it be?
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fuck this town. [25 Jun 2005|05:21pm]
so over SB. and everyone in it. well, almost everyone.
so over it, i'm never coming back.
don't miss me. it's probably not worth it.

PEACE.
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[08 May 2005|09:02am]
bullshit.
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basically to make life 200 billion times better... [01 Feb 2005|06:57am]
[ mood | i should be studying... ]

i seriously need to go to a show or something even remotely resembling (sp?) one in the very near future, which is very very rediculously soon and definitely as soon as can possibly be possible, actually. i swear to all things good and rad and awesome in your life, i'm having serious withdrawls. it's been too long for sure. and you probably get it by now, so...who's playing and who wants to come with me?! i'll even go alone if i have to...it IS that bad. :( ok, maybe i exaggerate just a little bit...but you get my point, si?

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[01 Feb 2005|06:18am]
[ mood | stressed ]

i'm doing waaaaaay better now, for those of you who are interested. it was just a phase i was going through i guess. and probably a much needed phase, cause i just needed to get my life together and stop messing all the good things up, which i'm currently working on. but i also believe i'm gonna need some good friends who are willing to be there for me when i need it (cause i did need it and there were only a couple who were there for me and to them, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart; you dont even know how much you've done for me) and i guess i dont have enough of those kinds of buddies. but i'm working on that too. and i would like to apologize to those of you, and you know who you are, who i've been kinda ignoring lately, cause there are some people who deserve a hell of a lot more attention from me than i've been handing out to them, so i'm sorry and i promise things will definitely change for the better. i'm finally figuring things out...it's about time.

on another note, i've got a midterm in 3 hours=it's study time! wish me luck.i'm gonna need it.
let's try not to fail college this time. sounds like a good plan...

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[06 Jan 2005|02:37am]
dear roommate buddy,
i'm sorry i haven't cleaned our residence lately. i feel bad about that. seriously. and i'm glad you told me. yes. i promise it will happen soon. really really soon. that's all i think.
love,
me.
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[10 Dec 2004|01:44am]
[ mood | tired but i can't complain. ]

i am employed x2 as of today.
last 2 finals tomorrow. and i'm actually studying this time. sorta.
had a good talk, that put some things into perspective, with a good buddy who i've kinda been neglecting. i hate when i do that.
i sleep too much. never thought i'd say that.
good people, in general, are hard to find.
i'm staying up in sb for winter break minus a couple days. anyone else gonna keep me company?
i miss some TO buddies who i really need to call. it'll happen. i promise.
i give up on the world about a lot of things. decided worrying's not worth it most of the time. maybe caring isn't either.
i realized there's more to life. just dont know what yet. gonna start looking.
there are a lot of things that i still want to do. not sure why i'm not doing any of them.
procrastination will be the death of me. along with cookies.
studying is a good excuse for eating a lot and not working out at all.
i have a good number of things going well for me, after all. big thanks to tiff for suggesting that i realize what i have, instead of bumming out on what i don't.
i've started standing up for myself more than i usually do, which still isn't a lot. i guess i'm just sick of being used by my "friends". i feel like a bitch for it most of the time, but i gotta do what i gotta do, right?
my tummy hurts. damn cookies. but they're so good.

i ate a tomato, alfalfa, and goat cheese sandwich today (some of you might think that's gross, but you are wrong. very, very wrong) and it made me think of brittny. and miss her. and then i thought about her mom's cinnamon rolls and i missed her even more, but mostly not cause of the food.
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[05 Dec 2004|04:12pm]
[ mood | studying. needs to be done. ]

i got my very own myspace.

i caved in.

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[30 Nov 2004|11:54pm]
[ mood | procrastinating ]

put the ones that you've done in bold.Collapse )

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failing at studying... [29 Nov 2004|11:36pm]
aileen is traumatized by hairy asses and keeps singing this country song while making me green tea because we are "studying" like good little asians. except i guess i'm only technically asian...whatever.
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[24 Nov 2004|12:51am]
[ mood | tanked like a fish. ]

i wasn't planning on all this tonight...hung out with aileen's roommates and some guys. they're rad. ate some good food that this kid taylor made. he's a culinary student. and he makes gooood food. called aileen like 50 billion times while she was stuck in traffic. miss ya already, bud. got drunk. visited derrik, jenn and her friend who i dont really know for like 2 minutes. discovered that skateboarding drunk is not a good idea. hung out with tiff, daniel, steve, micah, bobby, sean and some other awesome people which was way good. we need to do that more often. yep. and to think i was going to study tonight. riiight.


friendship isnt just lj comments.

i'm coming home tomorrow night sometime. let's hang out.

i miss some things about home...like free, good food and some rad people for sure.

i just miss some people in general...and they're not all from back home.

i love santa barbara...and its the people that make it fuckin awesome. stoked on living here. sb is more like home than i had ever wished for. i love it. yay.

my roomie is cooler than yours :)

i think i'm gonna miss college when it's all over. at least i've still got 2 1/2 years left.

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doin' good. oh so good. [22 Nov 2004|05:48pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

~went to cal poly this thursday with aileen to visit some buddies. it was fun. next time i need to stay longer.
~went to san diego with derrik to get his shit on friday. made it there in 2 and a half hours. speeding problem? maybe...
~ate 3 burritos in 24 hours. good to my life.
~got a tour of sdsu and hung out with my buddy blake. it's been a while. i miss that boy.
~went to ucsd and saw a bunch of people. never realized i knew that many people down there. good times.
~emily tran is way cute and needs to come visit again soon. yep.
~got my very own dvd player. stoked. now if i only knew how to hook it up = i'm technologically challenged.
~operation "dont let the parents know i'm home for 2 seconds to steal dvds they dont watch anyway". my brother's flailing arms: priceless. what a goon. but thanks, kid.

this whole weekend was a good break from IV. i needed that. mucho. and the good company made it even better.

random pictures, but not nearly enough. i need to get on that...Collapse )



i need a job.

i think i'm gonna try this studying thing. i heard it works sometimes.

i like when people actually do something with their life. it's just better that way. so if you're doing something with you're life, good job and keep it up.
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[16 Nov 2004|12:46pm]
you ever wonder if any of the people you consider your friends have used/use you and apparently that's all you're good for?

that's a shitty thought...
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bored and loud neighbors having a party and roommate on the phone and cant sleep so... [12 Nov 2004|01:20am]
[ mood | tired and such. ]

[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] quadrilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[x] white.
[ ] canadian
[ ] black.
[ ] hispanic
[ ] irish.
[ ] asian.
[ ] german.
[ ] french.
[ ] a mut or mix of everything.
[ ] Indonesian
[ ] short.
[x] inbetween.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded
[x] sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy
[x] single
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[x] not looking.
[ ] brokenhearted.
[ ] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] watching tv.
have you...
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ] crashed a friend's car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] had sex
[x] been in love.
[ ] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[x] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[x] snuck out of my parent's house.
[ ] ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] ever dated someone of the same sex.
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] made out with a stranger.
[x] stole something from my job.
[ ] celebrated new years in Times Square.
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] been to Europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] slept with a co-worker
[ ] cut myself on purpose
[ ] been married.
[ ] gotten divorced.
[ ] had children.
[ ] seen someone die.
[ ] been to Africa.
[ ] Slapped someone I loved.
[ ] Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/concert.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[ ] Been to Mexico.
[x] Been on a plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] Thrown up.
[ ] Purposely set a part of myself on fire.
[x] been snowboarding.
[ ] met someone in person from the internet
[x] taken painkillers for fun
[ ] intentionally burned yourself.
[x] miss someone right now.
[x] kissed just a friend
[?] have a crush on anyone right now.
[x] ever been asked to a formal dance.
[x] sick and tired of the oppisite sex

so maybe i'm not perfect...


i get new clothes tomorrow. stoked. "why?" you might ask. because its an indian holiday and thats whats supposed to happen. its times like these when i embrace my heritage. yes.

i dont like scary movies.

new sexy lingerie + starbucks + fun with roomie = it's been a good day.

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